a few weeks i saw a little tiktok video or whatever, a fat teenage girl with a weird hair color was going to have plastic surgery on her eyes to make them 10% bigger and she was in the hospital with a friend her age and her mother, who had bright red hair in a stupid style and was most likely late 30s or early 40s, she and her child were both obese but not morbidly so
she hugged and coddled her child and told her that everythings going to be fine and stuff and just other generic stuff like that, then the camera cut to a week after the surgery and you see that theres barely any change to the girl aside from looking slightly weird when looked at in certain angles, and you had her mother there praising her saying she looks so beautiful now
the whole time i watched that video(i did it several times over) i felt an extreme alienation, it really felt like im completely detached from these people in all ways and forms, like we dont share any experiences, even extremely basic and normal ones, and the only thing thats even "similar" about is us that our physical bodies are extremely vaguely similar and thats it.
i took in a lot of little details that nobody could possibly put into words, the strange coddling by the parent, the hair colours and styles, the obesity, the complete lack of the father in the video, the meaninglessness of an operation just to make her eyes a little bigger, and when she has far bigger reasons to her ugliness to boot, the fact that they posted a video of this at all, the amount it must have cost to do that surgery, her being told by her parent that she's beautiful when she's fucken ugly(and almost nothing changed after the surgery), all of these things
ive never had any experiences or a life or anything like these people have, they've almost definitely lived far easier lives than me up until now and will continue doing so, we are completely dissimilar, i do not feel any jealousy or anything though, just a complete feeling of alienation and a feeling that because they are so dissimilar to what i know i should kill them
i wanted to post the original video and i kept searching for an hour or so but i couldnt find it so youll have to make do with my description of it
to be clear this is not a jimpost just an immensely jimesque interpretation of freaks